Mfest: Good, odd, edgey, fun, missed pals, laughter, sadness, ILLNESS and funny voice. When can I do it again?

Work: NVQ, PDP, busy, OMG how the F*** am I going to do 3 times the amount and you want it when?! Otherwise, good.

Personal: Goodbyes and farewells to shit I have been holding constipatedly onto for 1/2 decade or more. Lets get this mind detox on the road :) Cried, sad, slightly unnerved, mostly freed.
Mum, I miss you. Happy Diwali and new years.
Happy 10months.

Toto: Sick sick, puke puck, loves loves, cute fat, retch, eat, sleep.
Sleep. sleep, eat sleep, puke.

Finally, this is how I hope to remember Machinenfest: CrazyshortMetalRocks Germany.

It never rains but it pours.

Mysery text solved and impulsiveness imminent.
I even sat thinking about Dharsh for a good hour or so before having the courage to reach out.

Never separate entities, always events together.

Psychicly linked somehow in another lifetime I rekon.

...The shape of things to come, I hopes so /glee.

Well then; Forms of Hands 2007: ( Read more... )
Few other pics here in gallery, I am bored now. byebye.

Awwww, Milan has ALL the energy when he gets up in the morning. As I brushed my teeth he was walking all about the house banging his tamboreen (in a complex drumming pattern I might add, with trills and stuff) and singing 'Keen' (he just told me).

So to keep him occupied I've put on a Nikelback album as we have no TV at the moment.
'Is it noisey music Masi?'
'No Milz, this is rock'

He's loving it ;) *so proud*

*oh what a hangover*
I knew I shouldn't have gopne to intelekt but I did. It was only for a lil relax with ben_t_over but...now I think about it I spent £40 Fuck.
At one point I was drinking neat vodka like it was water. This is quick becoming habit, I must force my hermit staus on me once more.

I like being the loner I always knew I was, it's not until recently I've found myself there again. the last time I could do this was when I was 16. It pleases me to be able to realise that my dream of having my own place, where I live, my haven, is still what I'm aiming for. A partner? well they'll come when/if they do. I'm just looking forward to being selfish and getting a pussy cat, maybe a siamese one.

I feel the same old pang inside for the lack of Spaceboi but the eternal wellbeing feeling is returning.
The thing is, it's when I'm sober mostly I appreciate it, how strange. Every time I achieve something, everytime I visit the gym, every well done day at work, every small gathering with others who can chat endlessly without difficulty they're all mine and I can do this without the daily cjhore of someone else's chaos to deal with.

I'm supposed to be getting a call from Fran to go with her and Jody to shop in Notts, hoping to bump into some of my buddies there and visitors too, almost decided to go to birmingham (I need wortk shirts!) on my own but think it would be nice to have some EASY company today. As people do I need a soul to carry me today, my rage from last night is subsided and I'm just happy and smiling to be at home, alone :)